Thanks a lot, little Debbie

You know that saying, "when it rains, it pours"? OH my gosh they wasn't lying on that one. Where do I start? First of all, it's been a hell of a week. I just can't wait for it to be over. I'm so looking forward to my first Friday and Saturday off in a while. I would talk about my crazy week at work but I don't wanna be one of those unsuspecting bloggers who's managers just so happen to stumble across the stuff...you know? So, let's scratch that. (even though that's one of the main things that went wrong this week.) Well it's very close to finals and everything is due and there's no time. I been working a lot, I don't have time to do any school work. Not good!! It was pretty good not working as far as in getting stuff done, but I was broke. Now I have a job, no time and still broke. Hmmm...how does that work!? I didn't get a chance to work on or turn in my video assignment because ONE, the camera my team member rented out wasn't so called working. It was working, she just forgot to push something in on the tape. TWO, she took the camera with her home for Thanksgiving making it so I couldn't get my extra footage I needed. THREE, my whole group depends on me to do EVERYTHING!!! So when I don't come through, everyone fails. Ugh. I hate being depended on for everything. It never works for me. Plus I found out financial aid is cutting me off. ugh. what am I gonna do now!? Then, I had to do a 3 page paper which I didn't finish the whole thing til it was time to go! I had to hurry to class because my instructor likes to get things started right away. On my way to school, I was eating a little debbie snack and I dropped it. I looked down to get it and BAM!! I ran into some guy's back!! Of all things!! I had to do...I run into someone!! Dammit!! Funny thing about all of this and it's a little creepy, everything I thought today, happened. I thought, I'm gonna be late. I was. when I got in the car, I thought that song "I think I fallen for you" would be on. It was. I thought I might hit someone tonight. I did. I was gonna get some food for me and my roomie and thought the place would be closed by the time I got there. It was. I thought my roomie would come home late. They did. Uggggh. what the hell is up today?!?! Seriously. I mean, it could be worst but I don't know...I guess I'm stressing. I guess I should just lay down. But in the meantime, I think I need a drink...cocoa that is.

Lay your head on my pillow and just relax...relax...relax, this bed was made for you...
til next time.

Thanksgiving went by too fast...

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey people out there?!
I know it's been a long time since I've wrote and wow, I need to get better on that. It's just a lot has been going on in my life lately. Nothing is a big wake up call than seeing one of your favorite sites who USE TO have you as a affiliate take you off. Ouch. Well, I guess I gotta move on, eh?
On other news, Thanksgiving just passed and it was WONDERFUL! It was great seeing my family and a few friends. One of my close friends came back from the military (National Guards). Always good seeing him. I was going to make a pie for everyone but that whole idea just went wrong. My mom used one of my ingredients for my pie and I didn't feel like going to the store. :( I went to the aunt's house just to miss most of the food and to sit in the dark for 30 mins. Yay! After that, went to a club my dad DJ's at. Nobody was there but us and a two or three couples. It was ok, though. We didn't expect there to be that many people anyway. Then I had to go home because I had to work on Black Friday (which was a big flop) and I had to bring home a plate for someone who had to work on Thanksgiving day. :( Today, I'm going to work...Oh yea, I got a job! Did I mention that?! I been there for 3 weeks now. It's ok. It's a job. The people are cool, I suppose. lol. I don't know everyone just yet. I just remembered I had a paper due Sunday...UGH! I need to start on that. I hate when teachers give you an assignment during Thanksgiving break! Like you're really going to want to do it! Hmmm...
Did I mention that this Black Friday was one of the saddest ones? It was like no rush anywhere, not really crowded anywhere you went and there was parking at the malls!! What is going on?
Lately, I been listening to other types of music besides the usual R&B and some Hip Hop. Hip Hop and R&B are really starting to sound a lot alike and is really boring me. (to death) It's to the point where I cringe when I hear it. ugh. You know if you hear a song you hate so much, you get that annoyed feel and cringe or something? Yeah, something like that. So...yeah, seeing what's on the other side. I been listening to oldies but I'm checking them out again too. :)
well, I have to get ready to go to work. That sounds funny with me saying that. I got so use to not having a job, it's just weird saying that. haha.
Til next time!
Love one another ....and don't backstab people who are there for you for people you don't know.

I hate being short

So, most people I meet in person either notice one of the three things about me: My smile, my personality and my height. I usually don't wear shoes that give me an extra boost and maybe I should...but that would be cutting into my beliefs again "false advertising". LOL!
Particularly today, I feel like my height has screwed me over again for success when I opened an email seeing that there was a fashion show coming up. NOT just any fashion show...the Victoria Secret Fashion Show! They are looking for models to be on it. It's a once in a lifetime chance to do this (so they say). What are the requirements? You have to be a female, live in America, 18-30 years old, can be in NY between Oct30-Dec3, and must be 5'8 in height bare feet. I am only 5'4 and 3 quarters. Ugh...it's not fair. But I'm not gonna give up. Eventually, something will come around for me, hopefully before I'm 30.
Today is a gray cloudy rainy-like looking day. I got out of the shower to hear the ice cream truck's little music. So, obviously he was making his rounds. One thing is,why today? Of all days. I haven't heard from him in like 3 weeks and now today!? How did he even get in the neighborhood!? I been trying to get some ice cream from him since I first seen him in the neighborhood...but I can't seem to catch him. One day I will...One day.
I start back school tomorrow and I'm not really looking forward to that at all. I guess so I can finish but waking up at 7am...it's got to be a better way!! Hopefully I'll do well this quarter and make it threw with flying colors. Wish me luck. :)
I guess I'm gonna go now. I been trying to do my hair all day! I don't know what to do with it though...
Love hard and play hard
Til next time

October is for pink

Hey everybody!!
Yesterday was October the first and also National Breast Cancer Awareness Month! So, if you know someone who's had, has or is no longer here because of it, be sure to honor those people and take time to appreciate them! Girls, you aren't too young to get breast cancer! I learned that the hard way. (I do not have breast cancer) I did have a dear friend/roommate who passed away last year from it. My grandmother also passed from it. If you ever get the chance, donate a $1 to the Susan G. Korman foundation. I do whenever I can. My debit card even sports the logo. It's for a good cause.
RIP Grandma and RIP Tippy.

Live as though it's your last (sort of speak)
Til next time.

Roses?

So, today while I was out running erruns and such, I found a rose next to my car on the passenger side. I don't know if it was there before and I didn't notice it...but there it was. One single yellow rose. It kinda was dehydrated... maybe it was out in the sun too long. who knows? Well, I picked it up and put it in my car. Maybe it's a sign or something or good luck or something. I don't know. It was kinda weird though. (thanks?)
"Something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long..." I had this song in my head all frickin' day!!! Ugh!! I need to get it somehow... It sucks being broke, people. Keep your job, even if you hate it! And if you get offered something better, keep the old one because you might get screwed over with the new one. Take advice from a pro...
I know this is really odd, but I didn't just want to talk about the the darn rose and that's it...But I guess that's exactly what I'm gonna do because I have nothing else to say.

Stay true til next time!

Kinda Odd...

Ok, some of you may have seen this before and I apologize, but this is the first time I ever seen this. It kinda caught me off guard. (a lot) The guy in the drawn picture kind of looks like the guy who's broadcasting this news segment. If it is him, that's messed up and funny as hell at the same time!! XD The way he's looking too is just...priceless!! Ha! I'm sorry dude. I have GOT to find the back story behind this.

OK, enough with my randomness for now. I'll be back...

Til next time. Live sweet.

UP DAMN DATE: I noticed you can't see the hand drawn pic on the side...due to this pic being kinda big. I'm not at my computer at the moment, so I can't make any changes....I also don't have the program(s) on my computer to do so. So just use your imagination for me...just this once.

This is what staying up late does to me....

*warning: very random rants*

Hello people...those of you who still read. I know I been slacking. You don't even wanna know. It's late at night and I'm drinking some cocoa (which isn't bad even though it's made with water) and trying to put myself to sleep. I'm visiting my mom again before I have to go back to school and also have a doctor's appointment. (Don't worry, I'm ok) I haven't been sleeping at night now a days. I guess back to my old routines, ay? Ugh... Anyway, some random thoughts came to mind and I decided, "Hey! Since you're up at like 3:40am and have nothing else better to do with your life, write a blog post about random thoughts!" (yeah...isn't that why I started this thing in the first place?)
A while back after I saw the movie Inglorious Bastards (which was pretty great-lots of talking though. :P) A thought came to mind- Hitler. Why the f*** does this man only like blond hair/blue eyes when his own damn hair and eyes are dark (brown?) ??? This man is nuts!!! Shouldn't his own troops turn against him?! You would think... I wonder sometimes what is so perfect about that combination? I mean, it's ok (I'm not just saying this because I'm black) but gray eyes are cool. Green...brown...hazel! :) And hair color...I personally like white/gray hair. Yea yea, weird. I know. I can clearly see that this man didn't want any diversity in his life or anyone elses. Think about it. If everyone look the damn same, nobody wouldn't be special. Where's the fun in that? Can you imagine getting robbed and going down to the police station and they ask you for a discription of who robbed you and the only thing you could say, "well, he had blond hair, blue eyes....and he was a man..." Wow! Great discription, sunshine. Well, I'm glad it isn't like that...anymore. Besides, it seem to be more common that there are more dark haired people all over the place. Dark is dominate, so I heard.


Ok, off that subject. I was surfing the web the other night and I ran into this very stupid looking movie that I just had to say something about. It's called The Hottie and The Nottie!
WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! (sorry, you have to curse for that) It stars Paris Hilton. It's about some guy who tries to get with Paris,who he fell in love with since childhood but he couldn't woo her because her ugly friend or something...I didn't care to read the rest of the details. Is this what we are aiming for, parents?! Come on now. Paris Hilton has blond hair and blue eyes. This other girl that's suppose to be her "less fortunate friend" has brown hair and brown eyes...with glasses. First off, what's wrong with that?? They put the girl on a one piece bathing suit and Paris on a two piece bikini. Are they trying to tell you something? All I have to do to be hot is to put on a bikini and die my hair blond?! (that probably wouldn't work for me, but dammit.) Will I watch this movie!? NO! I won't even look at the preview. What for!? So my brain cells will continue to deplete more with nonesense?!
UPDATE I just watched the damn trailer. I think I hate it even more now....


I been listening to Sara Bareilles lately. The 3 songs I heard besides her hit single, Love Song, are actually pretty good. I'm impressed. I think I will probably have to get that album. And also another good album is Mayer Hawthorne, which I didn't really know anything about this guy. He just seem to come out of nowhere but I was told I should listen to him. (thanks, nappyafro.com) Glad I did. Good stuff.

I hear starbucks is making those little instant coffee packs. Ok, that's cool for those who needs some quick coffee, but for some reason, I never was able to trust coffee that desolves in the water...that's like drinking tea leaves in your water...ewwwwwwww!! The article I read about it was saying it was more popular overseas...not too much here in America. Why am I not surprised? Ugh... I don't know... I like to see how well this is going to play out. They already started making those coffee filter things. It's like a flat disc of coffee for single serving usage. Seems like a good idea, but only works in special kinds of coffee makers. Genius idea! (Why did I pick a picture with Hillary Clinton on it?)

Well, I'm gonna take it into bed now. Take care, peoples. with love.
Til next time...

Back and not impressed.

OK, I know it's been a while. I've gotten to the point where I post like once a month. I'm sorry. I've seem to lost touch with the internet world or just the world period. I guess now a days, I don't really know what to write a blog about. A few friends of mine who reads my blog tells me that I'm really random and I need more subjects...I guess. I thought I was doing fine. I'll work on that! :)
Funny thing, I started on this particular blog about 2 weeks ago and here I am today, just now finishing it. Ugh. lol Anyway, What's the new? Well, I still don't have a job. It's getting really stressful. I find myself with frequent headaches and depressed. Good and bad, I'm still at school. Not to long til I graduate out into the real world and wonder, what's next? Not really looking forward to that. Of course, like a bunch of you I'm sure, watched the MTV music awards last night. It was OK, but I had a few problems with it.
1) What in the world was Lady Gaga wearing?! She changed her outfit up every time someone got up on stage. And it wasn't a better outfit. Plus this was the first time I seen her perform live. She sung pretty good live but man, what kind of performance was that?!
2) The BIG story is Kanye interrupting Taylor Swift's speech. Come on Kanye. Again?! Are you EVER satisfied? He's making all the stereotypes about people of color...true. I guess back to sitting in the back, right?
3) The host! I forgot his name and really don't feel like looking all over the internet for it. He was the host last year. He's OK but he's kinda annoying. And seems to try too hard. I don't know...maybe I'm hating.
4) Why does eminem always looks geeked up or mad all the time? It's like his face is permanently stuck that way. After he kicked the drugs, we saw his real face. Wow...seems it had an backwards effect on him. I wonder what drugs would do to my face?
5) The Michael Jackson Tribute. It was WAY better than the one BET call themselves doing. I mean, I never heard Janet sing live before...and I kinda wish she stuck to her auto tuning lip syncing. But the performance was great! :) RIP Michael.
I guess that's all my complaints. I probably missed some of it due to some technical difficulties.
Anyway, It's a lazy Monday...I'm getting sleepy. I will return sooner than next month. Promise. If you're still here reading, my bad. I'll try to stop having a ton of gaps. Bad me!
Be good to your love ones.
til next time!

Man, I screwed up

Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa!
Man, has it been a long time or what?! It's not because I've falling out of love with blogging or telling you all what goes on in my life... Honestly, ya girl has been hit with...yeah you guessed it, RECESSION!!!AHHHHHH! I never thought I would see the day. I went from being a full time student with two jobs to a full time student with no job trying to figure out how to pay my light bill. I tell ya, it's seriously hard out there. Lately, I been thinking a lot about what people use to tell me before I was old enough and in college. How they use to tell me college is the best years of your life and it's nothing but no worries and parties. Well...not for me!! I think I went to one party, which sucked, some event for the residences at my dorm (it was my 19th birthday which I spent with 3 total strangers but I won a George Foreman grill) and a lot of walking around places I have no idea I was at. I went back to my hometown every weekend to see my boyfriend and bestfriends and everytime I came back, there was a hole in the wall or blood on the floor. Yea, dorm life is great. I didn't realize how much I should of just enjoyed the time I was there, roughness and all, until now. I'm glad I got to experience it but kinda wish I would of too advantage of more of the stuff around instead of locking myself in my room and only coming out if I leave or wash clothes. 2 years later after moving out of there, I went on my own and started paying bills. The economy was falling but not quite bad yet. Fast forward to now, everyone is getting laid off or fired, and nobody can get a damn job. What da hell is going on?!?! I really wish I kept some of my other jobs...but stupid me... I guess we all make mistakes...
Am I finally out of my "young and dumb" stage?
As of now, things could be better...a lot better....
For now, I'll say I'm not giving up hope just yet...
In the meantime, I have so much to do...so much to prove and so many places to go to look for work. So, I must go to bed because, like seriously, it's 3:07am. (Do you know where you're kids are?)
Til next time, Junkies!

How disappointing....

A month ago I bought my first VS (Victoria's Secret) bra. I was really excited. Not that the fact I'm above legal drinking age and JUST now getting one of those highly priced brazers. (did I spell that right?) But now that I can finally see what all the "who ha" was about. I have to say, I'm not too impressed and here's why.
I finally (after 3 years of waiting) was approved for my VS angel card! I couldn't wait to see what kind of stuff I can get with this pretty pink card that had "angel" in silver cursive writing across the front. I went to one of the big VS locations and looked around. I had just received a coupon in the mail for a free pair of cotton panties and $10 off any bra. (not on sale of course) Well...I found that new biofit one and the one you can wear 7 different ways, which really it's 5. But hey, whatever sales the product! (the strapless way is one of the most uncomfortable ways there is!) Makes wonder why I bought the darn thing in the first place. Ugh...Anywho!
The lady told me that most women my size LOVE this bra. So, I said I'll try it. $38 later (this is with the $10 off) I was ready for a test drive. I got to try it on in the store, which I didn't know you could do. One thing, I had to buy a size larger than what I usually wear. (I see why all the busty women hate VS) The colors it came in are pretty bland and basic. (black, white, beige...etc) Oh well. After wearing this bra at least 7 times, I realized bras are like food. Yes, Food! The more expensive the food is, the less tasty it is. Though it looks better, you're better off getting a filet-o-fish than a filet minion (spelling again) The best fitting bra I have came from Target. That goes for panties too! Save your money!
Still love their fragrances, though. Which I buy on sale on those great semi-annual sales. Ha!
Til next time!

RIP Michael Jackson :(

I know this is mighty late of me. But of course the world knows Michael Jackson is dead. Man, that feels funny saying. After 3 days, I'm still shocked and at disbelief. I feel terrible. It's so sudden and caught us all off guard. Mike was one of my favorite singers. Almost everything he made was a hit (back then) and he inspired almost every singer out today. He was known all over the world. He was admired by tons. Everyone wanted to be him.This guy was so talented. And so misunderstood. I felt sorry for him. And what the media did to him was terrible. Always attacking the man and so much stress on him for years. He was a very remarkable man, for some reason he wasn't happy with himself. As of most talented people, I feel, aren't. I sympathize with his family, kids and close loved ones. Fans too. I'm hurt. I cried yesterday. I didn't think he'd die so soon. Who knew? With time, I know it'll ease away but right now, it's just shocking. Maybe he can rest in peace and have no stress on him, where ever he is.

RIP Michael Joseph Jackson. We love you and you'll NEVER be forgotten. Live on.
love,
me.

Food Porn: Lindt Balls...

It's that time again! You know what it is! It's time for another episode of Food Porn! Yeah boy!
Today's scrumptious entry is Lindt Balls. (My favorite kind of balls)
These delicious chocolate sweet milky balls will have you climbing the walls with excitement. I mean literally, my mouth is watering...
And they come in so many succulent flavors. Hazelnut is my favorite! (gotta love the nuts!)
Milk chocolate, Dark chocolate, White chocolate, Mint Dark, Orange, Raspberry, White chocolate with milk chocolate specks in it. OH GOD!! Why are you so good to me?!?!
And their hot chocolate is the best gourmet hot chocolate I've tasted in a while! Better than going to Starbucks or Waffle House. Best thing, it's only a dollar a packet! That's right. One packet, One dollar! And all you do is heat up some milk and stir it in. Bam!! Delicious chocolatey goodness! And you can even make hot chocolate from the balls themselves! Man, I'm drippin' over her!
And they don't stop at just plan chocolate. The inside is filled with a liquid delicious center or whatever flavor you choose. :) I remember when I first found that out. I was walking down the street with one of the balls I bought and I bit into it and chocolate spilt all over my shirt...OMG! But what a sweet experience it was. I know next time, eat it fast or throw them in the fridge!
Next time you pass by a Lindt store or even in the Walmart checkout lanes where there's the little 3 packs of Lindt balls, Get em! You won't be disappointed!!!
Til next (orgasim) time...

My goddie & lame album cover

Hello folks!
Just wanted to put a recent pic up of my God Daughter (my goddie). I call her Kiwi. Ain't she cute? lol Yea...I'm becoming one of THOSE people. LOL nah nah...no I'm not.

And isn't this the LAMEST album cover you EVER seen?! Comes from my Dad's huge collection of juke joint cds...lol

Like it?

A while back I was trying to be funny and cute and get a tattoo. I don't have any and I was wondering what I would look like with one. It looked cool and I got use to it. But the only thing is, yes, it says Pop Tarts. lol Why Pop Tarts? It was either the words or a picture of those pop tart things or the American Flag. So...I choose Pop Tarts. Yea, I suck. BAD!! Well, what do you think?

Don't worry, it's not real.

Someone had fun last night

Every morning when I get up, I have a normal routine. I get up, look around, walk to the window and look out of it to see if it's sunny or rainy. (once when I didn't do that, I ran out the house with no coat on and it was SNOWING) Then I go to the bathroom to, you know, brush my teeth, wash my face, blah blah blah. OK! Well this particular morning, I got up and looked out the window, I saw something strange stuck in the bush in front of my porch. I was thinking to myself, "nah, it couldn't be, could it?" Well I went to put my contacts on because I am very blind. When I came back, it was exactly what I thought it was. A condom! Somebody must have a great night the night before and wasn't thinking about the disposal of it or something. I was gonna go up stairs to the guy who lives above me and ask him was it his. And if so, CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF MAN!! It was just hanging there. And it had something inside it....EWWW EWWW EWW!! On his porch above mine, there were clothes or something hanging off the balcony and I guess it was in there and fell off. That wasn't exactly the best thing to wake up to. Oh well... people are too open with their sex lives these days. Shame...lol
Til next time
(strap up!)

what would you do?

I have a friend who's in trouble with the law. They have a warrant out for their arrest, unless they come up with enough money in time. What would you do? All your bills are due on the same day as of the money you have to pay. You have kids and (kinda) a significant other. What do you do? What's a quick way to get up some money or else go to jail for a while??
I'm asking for their sake. Just to help. Can you get up enough money before it's too late?

twice in one day? yeah!

Ok, I'm back. What?! Twice in one day?! This is absurd!! Nah, I been meaning to sit down and just write about crap off the top of my head for a while. Thing is, I never have time. It's always something. Lately, it's been the evil AIA taking my time. I could just throw that to the side and write anyway, but then I'd fail class and be kicked out of school and you wouldn't want that, now would you? I thought so.
I'm pretty sure by now everyone seen the MTV movie awards. (If you haven't, what's wrong with you? And not having cable isn't an excuse anymore.) So, that part where Brono (whatever his name is) falls onto eminem's face with his butt crack exposed...funny stuff. I thought that was really messed up. (in a funny, laugh my ass off kind of way.) So after days of thinking that crap was real, I read somewhere it was staged! Why am I not surprised!?! Mostly everything on TV or internet is staged. Who does things naturally anymore!? Why do we need to? (being sarcastic here, people) So, after I was a little bummed about that...I ate a protein bar and continued being bored out my mind. I'm so sleepy.
You notice on those days when you just don't feel like talking to anyone or being bothered, that's when EVERYONE wants to talk to you, even people you don't know. Your teacher, random people in the halls, the guy who puts boots on your car if you're illegally parked, some little child that shouldn't be at your school in the first place, etc...(not really, but you get it)
What's the deal with shoulder pads? Why are they coming back in style?! That junk wasn't hot! Why are they acting like it looks good?! And another thing, ( I don't feel like arguing) but those stupid onesy suits that Lady Gaga and Beyonce and others be trying to rock now, NOT HOT. ok. That crap is annoying. It was cool at first. Kinda cute, I guess. But now it's just plan annoying. Everyone does it, even the trannies. Yes, them too! Speaking of trannies, I miss living downtown. I saw them everyday! lol
My cat needs a playmate. He always getting into something and messing things up. So, when I get a chance, I'm going to get him another little friend. Hopefully a girl. I want to name her Picah. If you have any objections, I really don't give a f***.
My brother been tripping out a lot at work lately. It's kinda funny. He told me today they had some fire alarm go off and told them to stay in their seats while it was going off. He said "hell no" and ran outside. Why?! Why would you do that?! lol You don't wanna risk losing your job. Not in this hell-hole of an economy. Ughhh....
Last night, I was watching Bizzare Foods and Mr.Andrew was eating something that look like slop. You know when you were a little kid and you didn't quite eat all of your food, so you mixed everything and some all together and made a weird looking....gross slop? Yea, that's what that look like. And he drunk some snot looking egg nog stuff...which he really didn't drink it. That was funny. It's hard to fake like you like something in someone face so you don't hurt their feelings. I know...'cause I tried.
There was this girl in an empty classroom I was using at the time and she just started talking to me out the blue. She was nice and all, seemed kinda young. (younger than the average college student age) She was drawing something and I looked at it. She asked me what did I think. I told her it looked really good and she had something there. Well, truth is...I lied. I usually don't like to lie to people, especially if they didn't deserve it. But what the heck was I gonna do? I couldn't say, "man, that shit suck". That would of hurt her feelings. Ok, let's back it up. It wasn't THAT bad. It just wasn't that good. Like, she draws better than an 8th grader and most adults with no drawing abilities but not great to get the lead job in character design at Disney. I'm not the best now, so don't think I'm blowing my on horn. She really believed me. Maybe if I ran into her again, I'd give her a fair critique. The coloring was good, though.
Well, I think I'll end this weird one where it is. Like it is.
Til next timez....

made it 4 years!

Hey Everyone!
Yea, it's me again. (yay!) Today is Wednesday but not just any normal Wednesday! It's me and my boyfriend's 4th year Anniversary! Yes, this means we have been together for 4 years. Wow, the time does fly by. lol Unfortunately, he has work and I have school...all day. ugh. Oh well, that's not going to stop me from smiling!
Maybe he'll read this or not, but I just want to say;
I am very happy and truly lucky to have such a great and wonderful man in my life. With all the crap that goes on in this world, it's nice to have someone who is truly yours. Someone sweet, understanding, dependable, honest, loyal, humble, cute, sexy, delicious (lol) and lovable. I couldn't have asked for a better guy. I know I don't tell you that enough, but you're a really good guy. I love you.
Ok, off the mushy stuff before someone calls me out, like usual. lol
I'm going to eat something and return to my usual routine of school and being bored out of my mind. ugh...yea, that's life for ya. Stick in there til you get it done! (or close to it.)
Til next time, peoples....

Graduation night: Failed.

Ok, remember I said I was going to a graduation? I went. It went by so quick and it was ok I guess...I mean most graduations are boring til you see the person you came for walk across the stage. Anyway, the first time EVER that I've seen this at a graduation, someone got into a big fight! WHAT DA F***?! How are you going to fight at a graduation?! You are not only looking dumb but you're ruining other people's special night. Thanks a lot, assholes. Jeez. And nobody knows what they were even fighting about. It was like 2 grown women and 4 other young girls. Wow. So, there was the usual weave on the ground afterwards. Police and screaming people. So sad. I guess on a good note, most of everyone I knew didn't see the fight. Only the people on the inside of the building saw it. So sad...Shaking my head.

graduation day! (for the young'ns)

Today, I'm getting ready to go to one of my BF's graduation. I'm so proud of her! It was actually 4 graduations I was suppose to appear to this week, but I had to miss one because of school. Ugh...who goes to school from 6 to 10pm anyway?!! I will be making 3 of them because they are all at the same place. Isn't that something? lol But at least I'm going to be there! :) My mom and dad went to the one I couldn't go to. They said it was really nice and my friend looked really pretty. :) (sorry I couldn't make it, red.)
So, anyway today I will be getting ready for my hour long drive to see my friends and some of my family. But in the meantime I have to do something with my hair! It sucks so bad!!!
I think it's going to rain. And my cat is so bad...he eats all the time and he messes up everything.

Ok, now random question of the day.... Cicly Tyson or Ester Roll...Who rocked it better?
Til next time...I gotta get ready to go!

Why I love art.

There are a TON of reasons why I love art. Art is a form of communication to everyone all over the world. You don't need to speak every language to interpret art. Art is a beautiful form of expression. Everyone has art. Everyone like art. Art is wonderful. I love art.
When I see beautiful artwork, it makes me remember why I came to this dump (aia).
My mother always inspired me from day one, when I discovered I had an artistic ability. She didn't let me lose it. She pushed me to keep doing what I loved. She didn't have much but she would always let me draw on the back of her old work documents or scrap paper she found. Thanks mom.
A man that I have known since I was 14 and is as close and dear to me as ever is one of my biggest inspirations. He makes me believe that I am good. Not just good enough. He's an artist himself, so I can take his word for it. He inspires me when I see him do a good piece from time to time.
A good friend of mines who I met when I first moved here is a very great artist. He use to be alone a lot but hung with me and my roomie and friends occasionally. He wants to be an illustrator. I always admired his artwork. I never see him because he's always on the go but I do see his work from time to time. It gets me inspired.
Sometimes just really good movies or book covers or things I see around makes me inspired. Not particularly a person. But whatever the art form is, whether it's music, drawing, painting, modeling, designing hair style or clothes, cooking or whatever, art is art. Art is beautiful and original.
That's why I love art.
Til next time

rainy days

On a raining gray saturday, I sit reading a Marie Claire magazine and eating left over lasagna that I cooked an previous day and wishing I didn't have to work.
That's how most of my saturdays or weekends are. I would much rather be eating a hot fudge sundae doodling in my sketch book or curled up eating strawberry sorbet watching a movie with my boo. But that's life. Ever since I been working and out of my parents' house, I never had a Saturday off. Or Friday, nor Sunday. I guess that's life. No complains here....just saying.
I have a great friend who's really close to me and my family. I know something she doesn't know and well, because she doesn't know this, it's hurt her so bad. She' mad at the wrong person. What do I do? I mean, it's non of my business to get involved but when someone you see is hurt by it, do you sit back and watch? And I just know that if she found out the truth, she'll be mad at me for not saying anything because we are "better" than that. :( Oh well...I'll figure something out.
School is boring and depressing.
Work...I don't even wanna talk about.
And life....well, I'm here! I'm glad I still have my family and loved ones.
Well, I guess I'll end this one...
Til next time!

My timely rants/news

Man, it's getting hot outside and I don't have a thing to wear. I still got sweaters but what fun is that?! People already look at me like I'm crazy. I don't need more of that! Gosh! lol
I'm really getting sick of my job. The customers ("guest") are a pain in the a**. There are more things that bother me but of course, since my face is all over this blog, there wouldn't be no denying I wrote it. Ugh...
I'm working on a way to get up some extra money while I plan my escape! lol nah...but for real, I do need money! Anyone wanna donate to the "J.I for an I" fund. Yea..I didn't think so.
I'm still trying to get better with that dumb 3D program, Maya. It's so hard...I hate it. Ugh...
If you ain't notice, I'm still at AiA. I hate that place too. Look at me, all this hate in the air. I'm usually against it. lol
Man, that show True Blood is returning to HBO soon. I'm excited. I have something to look forward to watching on TV again. Yay!
I'm working on my portfolio(not the modeling one) but my art one. One that shows my talent. I had a problem with that in the past. Everytime someone wanted to see my art work, I couldn't show them because I never had my "best" with me or at all...that's gonna change! Any suggestions!!??
I decided the other day I gotta put my cat on a diet. He's getting way way WAY too fat...so sad. I guess that's my fault. Kinda fed him too much. ugh
You notice when you quit a job and it was kinda on bad terms, when you come back to that place, it's always that weird awkwardness!? (You know, like running into an Ex of yours.) They always ask you things like "Soooo, how's the new job?" or "You still got that other job?" or "what are you doing with yourself now-a-days?"
A lot of times, I find myself asking myself Do I speak another language. This is because when I'm at work, people either don't understand what I'm saying or ask me "what?" over and over again.
Example: Guy walks in an orders something. I ask "what size?" He says his order again. I say "what size?" He gets loud with me and says his order again. I say "what SIZE??" and he says his order again, but this time slamming his hand down on the counter. Then his girlfriend says "she said what size." Then he says "oh. Small. " Like NOTHING didn't happen. WHAT DA HELL!? ugh... I need to learn spanish or japensse so at least if I'm speaking something else, they have a reason to ask me over and over, "what did I say?"
Ok, gotta get to work again...
Til next time!

Blame it on the e-e-e-e-economy

Of course most of you should know who Jamie Foxx is...right? And I hope you've heard "blame it on the alcohol". Well someone made a spoof of it called "Blame it on the Economy". FUNNY AS HELL!!! I love it! It's so cute and on top of that, they got people who look like who they were trying to be! Good job, good job.

WOW!
If I don't stop NOT posting, I might as well close my account. But then again, where would ya'll be without me!? :) Yea...I put a smile on your face!
Anyway, things are still kinda crazy but at least I'm still alive, eh? I had a great mother's day!! I went to see my mom and hang with her. I made a video dedicated to her and gave her a pic of me and my brothers for her...and two dozen roses. Other gifts she got was a necklace, a lot of cards, flowers, perfume, a movie and of course, just seeing us! On my way home on that DARK highway, my car ran hot and I ended up having to catch a ride with my boyfriend. It was 2:30AM and I had to go to school in the morning. I was so tired. I was upset, too. What am I going to do!? I could try to share the car or catch the bus/train or buy a scooter that I really wanted!! (huge smile on option #3) Ok, so if you didn't already know, I LOVE those scooters that are out right now. I mean, they always were around but they gotten cool again or something. I test drove it and I had a great time! It was so fun and easy to ride. It's like riding a bike without paddling and going extra fast (like I like it!) Ok ok, off that....
Earlier in the week, I was at Starbucks getting my usual (soy toffee nut white mocha with no whip) and some lady walked up to me and ask could she give me her card. I'm like, "ok, why not". Then I noticed it was pink. WTF?! Yea, you should know where I'm going with this. I didn't even read the thing because I already knew what it was. She was trying to get me to join the mary kay cult! AHHHH! not again! If you read my previous post about the Mary Kay cult, this would be part two. Sad thing is that it wasn't even the same lady. They didn't know eachother, they were just trying to get people to join their team. Ok, that's all fine and dandy or whatever but if EVERYONE joins your team, then there wouldn't be no one to buy your product or have on your team. And it seems all glamourus but you really have to be a hustler to actually get those "$8,000" checks. That's what I think. Who knows...
There are a LOT of events that are coming up this month. Two of my closest best friends are graduating from High School and I'm SOOOO proud! The thing is, trying to get there. Now with my car messed up, that's going to make it extra changelling. :( But, we'll see.
As usual, I'm in class...so I guess I better get to it.
Til Next Time!!!

a breather...

Aww man! It's the 6th of the month and I haven't made a post?! What's wrong with me? I know ya'll miss the randomness. My bad. Been extremely busy and tired. I need a new job, by the way. It's sad that I don't have much spare time anymore. Like I'm in class as we speak typing this. Don't worry, we're on break. Midterms today! ugh....I need to figure something out.
So breifely what's been up,
I went to the movies to see X-men Origins: Wolveraine. (GREAT movie by the way)
Help my brother moved and was an hour and half late to work. All this because I wanted Sunday off for mother's day. (I'm the only person at my job who doesn't see their mom) It's been raining like everyday in GA for the past week or so...whoa. And terrible storm is heading this way! Not good. And now, I have to go back to class. I'll finish and do a better post. Promise.
J

What?

Today's Word of the Day:
RANDOM

Today's randomness:
Does anyone remember that movie "Thinner"? What a movie...who actually thought that was scary?!

Yeah....

The Mary Kay Cult

Wow wow wow...once again, it's been a min since I really wrote. I'm sorry. Just haven't had a lot of time...or made the time at least. Shame on me. It's for good reasons though. You know the usual, school and work and maintaining life in general. How are you feeling? I'm decent. There's always room for improvement...as I usually say. Well, let's see. Where can I go with this?
I had an interesting week. Earlier last week, I was "invited" to an special event to get a free makeover or something. Turned out it was about them trying to get us to sale Mary Kay products. They really get you hype and what not. Only problem I had was, I'm a terrible salesman. And I'm not just downing myself. For some reason, every job I've gotten (except two) was in retail...saling things. And it NEVER worked for me. But I needed money, so I stayed.
Anyway, this lady showed us how to apply a simple natural look (lip gloss, lotion and stuff) and how good the product feels on your skin. That was about 30 mins. I was heading home thinking I was dropping by and ended up staying there for 3 hours. I was really reluctant and ready to go. There was a girl sitting next to me and she was very excited about getting into the business. You know the whole deal, after all, Mary Kay has been around since your grandmother was young. They told us about how your first check is $8,000 dollars and driving pink cadallics and what not. Nice...if you can do it. They said it sounds like a pyramid scheme but it's not. It's totally legal. I guess...I mean, I'm still not to high about jumping on the bandwagon. I'll wait for the bus. Well, to end all that, I came home to a "I told you so" and a kiss on the forehead. (previously my bf told me that this Mary kay sales lady was going to try to get me to join. SOOOO!)
I don't think I'm cut out for it so I don't think I'm going to do it. But if I had to....really had to and really needed money....
I'll be a bartender.
Til Next Time...

I didn't pay $7 for nothing (revised)

Man, I tell ya. I been having some of the most Drama-filled days at work lately.(Decided not to go into that, thanks a lot King Jerm) Well anyway,
After another stressful day at work (it shouldn't be that way) I came home to my bookie :) and he saw I was stressed. Well, he looked up a local comedy show and well, we went. Now, I was hoping this was going to be good...you know, at least funny enough.


Man, I was so wrong.


OK, where do I start?
We find the place and it looks like a abandoned building. (strike one) Then there was no sign to tell you what this place was. Just the street number. (that one is included in the strike one) We were about to go back home til we pulled around back and saw people standing at the door. [yes! this is the place!] We get out. We walk to the door. As we approached, we notice those people standing there wasn't in line. No, they were just chillin. Ok...cool. I guess. Well, the thing said it's $7. So we're looking for someone to pay. Nobody wanted to take out money. [odd] We asked some guy was this the place and what not. He said it's down stairs. We went down stairs. As we went down, there was this music playing really loud. [sound like metallica- and it was] I ran into a lady and asked her what was going on. She said the show was going to start soon and that it was a weird night. [tu' che]-I guess that's how you spell it. We sat down and looked at the stage. It appeared to be a guy playing the guitar and very well might I add. Then my man pointed out a very important detail.- this dude was playing guitar hero. (smh) He was doing really REALLY good...but wouldn't it have been more amazing if he was doing the same thing on a real guitar? I don't know....not hating! So anyway, dude got through the song and I guess he was feeling it...REALLY feeling it. He broke his guitar on the ground...
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After it wouldn't break on the ground, he tried the wall. It worked. Then he screamed and jumped off stage. [bravo...bravo] So now it was time for the comedy! Unfortunately, we came on a night where it was some dude's birthday and apparently everyone in the room knew this guy but us, so they did a roast on him. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FORCE YOURSELF TO LAUGH?!?!?!?! Oh my gosh!!! WHAT DA HELL!?! I didn't get any of the jokes, except for the gay ones, but how many times are we going to do that one. And you know what? The funniest person was the guy sitting behind me laughing at everything because he had the most f***'d up laugh ever...and it also sound like he was forcing himself to laugh. NOT A GOOD LOOK, PEOPLE!!! And the guy they were roasting, he was drunk by the time he had his turn to go up there and joke. wow....so he said the same thing over and over and OVER again. wow. Now, these seem like some really great people and all...I just didn't understand. It should of been more....people friendly. [For those who don't know you.] I did have a good time after the show...I went to Waffle House. After the show, there were these break danceing kids. They were really good. I enjoyed that. I would of just paid to see that. But as soon as they were done, we dipped. No more comedy for me! Maybe I can catch them when they are doing regular stuff. First impressions are lasting ones, dudes. Remember that.
One day, I'm going to look back at this and...find those guys for ruining the rest of my saturday night!!
Til next time.

Size does matter!

I've been working in retail for a (on and off) 3 years now. Man, I hate it. That's another reason why I'm still in school. One day this will all pay off...soon. I hope. lol.
One of the things that I hate about retail is the BS you have to put up with from not so smart people. You don't get paid enough to take the junk you do take...and you have to work harder than someone who makes 6 figures. Wow. Isn't that backwards?!
One thing that I find very annoying is when someone orders something to drink...let's say a mocha. And they been there before a million times so they know what's in it. They take 15 minutes to figure out they want a mocha. Then the thing they forget to say is, what size. Size does matter, people. It is the difference between you paying almost $6 for a large of $3.97 for a small and if you can drink it all. Why would you forget the size?! And don't think the people behind the counter doesn't think nothing of it....they are very VERY annoyed. By the way, don't piss off anyone who handles your food. It just isn't safe. So next time you walk into a restaurant and specifically order something, don't forget that small little detail....SIZE!! :)
Also....if your somewhere and there's a lot of people in front of you and it takes a minute to get to you, please know what you want by the time they get to you. That ALSO does not make any sense to wait that long in line and then try to decide what you want when your turn is finally up.
Just had to get that off my chest...
Til next time....

Food Porn: Strippin' Strawberry Sorbet!

Ever since I finished the last bit of my pint of Strawberry Sorbet, it's been on my mind. I should of gotten my lazy butt up and went to the store and bought some more. But...instead, I just sit here and fantasize about it. LOL Today's food porn is....Strawberry Sorbet!
You ever ate the stuff? It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOo good. I mean so So so so so good! It's soft and smooth and has chunks of real strawberries in it. Who wouldn't flip out on that?! (if you like food) I'm taking about Hagan Daze brand. Not that other stuff. Uggh!
For some reason, I'm writing in italics now...ugh. I can't seem to get it off. Yes, I tried pressing the button!! Dammit! OH well. Ok, so to end that, if you ain't tried it, I recommend you go out to your local grocery store and get some Strawberry Sorbet. They also come in Mango, lemon, peach and something else random I can't think of right now. :) Til next time, my food porn stars!

Loud people urk me.

OK, here's another one of my pet peeve pieces. Today's happen to be one that happened a few days ago.
So the last day of school came and went and I'm on Spring Break. So far, a very rainy spring break. ugh. And my last day in my web design class, there was a girl who had received a phone call. Now, you think she would just take the call outside the classroom or something...you know, common curiosity (?) or whatever. Well, NO! She wants to be different! She wants to take the call right then and there in our quite classroom where people are working and take the damn call. And it wasn't just a quick "hey, I'm in class, call you later". NO, it was a long conversation about what?! I don't know! She spoke in spanish the whole time. She's Jamaican!! Then she was loud with it! And her voice sound like she had a bad cold or something. I was this close to walking out the room...that's just rude. And after her 30 minute convo, she didn't even apologize to the people she disturbed. That's some BS. But you know what, I'm glad she did it. Gave me something to talk about. lol
So next time you're in a public place and it's quite because people are, I don't know, working! Keep in mind, you should be considerate and just step out the room.
Til next time...

You're turning me off...

For a while now, I knew about Keri Hilson. Wasn't til earlier this year that I really started hearing about her. She's a talented writer, an interesting singer and (I guess) her style is ok. But why hasn't she made it big yet? I mean, isn't she really catching on? She seems to be doing everything right, right? Wrong! And that's my post is about today. Why Keri Hilson haven't blew up yet-My version.
1)Her voice isn't commercial enough. It's commerical...maybe a little too commerical but there's just something about the way she sings that hasn't quite picked up with the in-crowd.
2)Her style. You ever seen her album cover? (what's that you say? you didn't know she had one out? damn, damn, DAMN!!-florida from GoodTimes) Anyway, about that album. Well, first of all, what is she doing?! She's sitting in the middle of an ocean? puddle perhaps? I don't know. She's sitting in her grandmother's living room arm chair. Hmmm... There's a odd color sunset behind her. Her hair is...well, the way she usually rocks it. And those clothes! Ugh...leopard skin print tights under some kind of tunic shirt/dress thing. And the whole color of the album period...disaster. Way too much is going on in that album cover...*Shaking my head in slow motion*
And last but not least....*drum roll*
3) she's Keri Hilson. There's nothing wrong with her. She actually does have talent but you notice that all these behind the scenes people are jumping out of the woodwork? Everyone is trying to make an album. Be the next, I don't know, Ne-yo. All these song writers are good writers and I'm sure they can sing their butt off because after all, when you write a song for someone in a pacific way you want it to go, you have to sing it to them. BUT, that does not mean you should take your career on the road which you probably make more money writing than you do trying to be an entertainer. That' s just my opinion though.
Now, before anyone gets all offended and defensive...I have no problem with her. She's cool. She's talented. I think she should just stop with the solo thing...that's all. Keep writing and appearing in videos.
Til Next Time....

Bad choices, careless thinking

You ever have those days when things are going ok, not great just ok, and then something happens and it just get so much worst!? Yea, me too.
Well, I can say this all started yesterday. My day was actually pretty good. I got a free drink at Starbucks just because I took the time to talk to lady that was working. She was nice. :) Then I got some free chocolate from one of my favorite chocolate stores...just cause. In return, I brought her a smoothie. I went to work, it was kinda busy but cool. The day went by fast which was good for me because I didn't wanna be there. LOL I talk to my bff on the phone for a minute until we were disconnected. Then I headed to one of my co-worker's house. She was cooking dinner (which was actually some food she promised me) and ended up inviting some more people over for the food,too. We talk for a while (while Family Matters was on in the background, hehe) and she finished cooking. Finally, the people she invited came over. We talked, played some random game "brutle honesty" since we didn't have any Uno cards. Now, I was happy I wasn't a klutz all day...until just when I was leaving, I spilled a full cup of juice. Not only it got on the table, it got on the floor and my very expensive phone that I didn't even have for a year yet. *sigh* Always Fubu, right? I ended up getting home very late and had people worried and mad. Stupid me, didn't call and a lot of this could of been easily avoided...or at least just took the food and ran. hmm... So, the next day (which is today) I didn't exactly get up on time for work. My phone was also my alarm clock. I had my back up old fashion one with the bells... it woke me up too early. I'm tired as crap right now. I got to work an hour and a half late. My manager was giving me a hard time, too. I don't care though. After work, I went to T-Mobile to get another phone. I had to call the insurance company which lucky I had. :) Then they gave me this terrible old school bootleg loaner phone to borrow until I get my new one in the mail. This thing suck! It's in black and white, the buttons are hard to push, the applications suck and ring tones...ugh...don't get my started. And now I'm at school trying to figure out this 3D program for the um-teenth time...*sigh* Could of been worst, right?
Til next time

Random iz what they call me!?

I was talking to a really good friend on the phone the other night and she was telling me that she reads my blogs. I was like, "thanks! that's great! I'm glad someone does!" She told me that after reading my blogs, I am very random. lol. I guess there's nothing wrong with that. After all, I am, kinda.
So, every so once in a while when people actually wanna comment on my post, I get those angry people who curse me out because my views are different from theirs. Isn't the whole point of blogging is stating your opinion? Who says you gotta agree with them? damn. for an example. I mentioned in the Keyshia Cole post that I always get people cursing me out about that lady just because I don't think she's God's greatest gift to R&B. I'm sorry I don't feel that way. News flash: Everybody isn't going to like what you like. But for sure, someone was sending me an very angry message about how jealous I am of Keyshia Cole and all the things that didn't have anything to do with what I was saying in the post. Hmm... ok. And then I get some angry rapper mad because I told my experience at West End mall. Honestly, I don't think anyone in the right mind would like that place. For real. I mean, even Ryan Cameron (V-103) said he wouldn't date a girl who shopped at West End for a date. Come on now. It's not just me.
I'm not going to stop saying my opinion on things, because why? Who am I trying to please? If you don't like it, don't read it. I don't read, watch or entertain things I don't like. Why? Why waste your time? And for those who know me personally know I don't mean any harm on this stuff. I'm just talking/bloggin...
Anyway, I gotta go to school.
Til Next time

Food Porn: Chocolate Fondue

Hey...it's that time again. I know it's been a while.
Another tasty edition of (yes, that's right) Food Porn!

Today's delicious post is...Chocolate Fondue. Yes, dark chocolate fondue from the Melting Pot.
It can be milk chocolate, dark chocolate, or white chocolate...how about that yin yang?
Dark cherry chocolate or a banana foster. :) Yummm! Are you into flambeed fondue in front of you? If so, you'll love that silky white chocolate swirled with disaronna amaretto which is flambeed right at your table. Talking about flaming hot entertainment! (Yeah!)
Rather have pecans and caramel in your chocolate? Try the flaming turtle! Also flambeed! Whichever one you choose, you know it's going to be a winner! :)
Get you some fondue and let the chocolate turn you out! ;)

Adele gots my vote!

I been listening to Adele's album and I'm like, "wow, that girl can sing!" I love her album. It's a breathe of fresh air for once. And I watched that "chasing pavements" video. Classic. It's really artistic. I loved that, too. Those people dancing on the ground...very creative. I just had to comment on that.
J

elevators

You know what's so dang annoying to me!? When you're in a building and someone who has nothing in their hands or if they do, it's just a notebook and they take the elevator to the 2nd floor. What the f*** is up with that?! I mean, why can't you just take the stairs? I just don't get what walking up a few steps is going to do to you instead of getting on an elevator, waiting about 30 seconds and walking out. Oh well...maybe I'm tripping.

Til next time....

I went to West End mall & all I got was this damn weave?

Ok, so yesterday was my only day off of the week. (I work everyday) So, I decided to go on a little exploring adventure with my boyfriend. We went to the most ghetto-est mall EVER!!! It's called West End. (Atl.GA.) That place is so ghetto!! I kept hearing all the stories and myths about how that mall is. First of all, it's more like a plaza than a mall. Just one floor of so called stores. When you first walk in, there's people arguing outside in the front. Busted cars or cars done up with rims and loud music. Kids all over the place. There was NO air conditioning inside of that mall. NONE! It was hotter in there than it was outside...not to mention it was cooler on the train than it was in that mall. So sad.... The only stores they had was a few shoe stores, a music store, resturants like ricky's ny style pizza and jaquan's chiness express. (made up names) There was a store in there that was basically like a cross between the dollar store and big lots. A store that does nothing but weave. SMH. Jewelry store/those stands that sit in the middle of the mall. Oh, and get this, there was a store where strippers buy their gear. WTF?!?! What's really good?! I mean, it's funny because I was talking to my BF about where do you buy clear heels. Then next thing I know, I see a bunch of them in display in front of the store window...along with some other things...ugh. I guess on the bright side, they did have a Rainbow store. Man, who am I kiddin'? That was the WORST mall I ever went to in my life!!! I'd rather buy my clothes off the side of the road in the middle of nowhere of a truck from an old southern farmer named Hank.
Well, I got that out of my system. I'm not going there again. Next time, I'll just believe the roomers. Til next time~

Where did that come from?

I was in a deep sleep. I was woken by my huge orange cat. He was staring at me for the same reason every morning he wakes me so dang early. He was hungry.
It was very cold in the house this morning. I thought the heat was on. I heard rain. So, I thought it was rain. Duh! After my boyfriend left, I got up about 2 hours later so I could go to work. I got ready to go, I opened the door and WHAT THE HELL?!
Snow...it was frickin' snow everywhere. On the first of March. Odd weather. I wasn't prepared for this. I was hoping they would cancel work. No, they didn't. I should of known since the first interview with that job was on a snowy day like today. It was so pretty and nice and fluffy. I wish I was off to play in it but I could only look out the window at it. It was continuously falling. Beautiful. We don't get snow very often here, so it was very nice. :) All in all, it was a good day.
Til next time.

A love story between a Paraplegic & a monkey

You know what movie sucks REALLY bad?
Monkey Shines.
Yes, the old one. Why do I say this? Well... I never actually seen that horrible movie til last night and man, did I regret it! I remember back in the days at the age of 8 going to Blockbuster with my mom and brother looking for movies. My brother always wanted to go to the Horror section. I hated the horror section. Every once in a while, I'll go over there and see what's the fuss about. Well, I saw this particular movie cover of a stuffed monkey with a bloody razor blade. Creepy...
And I always thought, "Man, that movie probably is scary as crap!!!"
Fast forward um-teen years later, and I see this darn thing on OnDemand (some free movie channel) and decide to see what it's about. Big surprise, that shit was the WORST ... ugh...just terrible...BAD...I can't even find the words for that bull!
In a fuckin' nut shell, that movie was about some dude who just got through bangin' his girlfriend and goes out immediately for a jog soon to be hit by a truck and becomes a paraplegic. His friend, some "genius" who injects strange fluids into monkeys to make them "smarter" and some chick who trains monkeys to do things around the house for lazy humans. They give this man in the wheelchair a monkey and it does stuff for him and somehow is able to link with his thoughts and crap. Then the man realize the monkey is bad because it killed his mother, best friend, his asshole doctor-who could of saved him from being a paraplegic and his ex girlfriend-who got with the asshole doctor after she found out dude was paralyzed from the neck down. Ending: Dude takes a huge bite out of the monkey's neck and ripes him/her apart. And he gets another operation so he can walk again. Ends up with that lady who trained the damn monkey.
HOW LAME IS THAT!?!?!? UGHHHH! That was waste of my time and energy and memory. I could of had a V8. Dammit!!
I know I don't usually curse but that movie was pretty Fuckin' bad. Not as bad as the Gingerdead man....DON'T SEE IT!!!!
Til next time...

Women are only objects

Back so soon?
Yes, I didn't want to put two different subjects in the same post. Maybe I should of? I don't know. Anyway, another thing I have been thinking about is....(drum roll) Women.
Yes, that's right. Women. Not just any women. Black women. Why? Because...
For how long have black women been looked at as "objects"? Just T&A or something to pour champagne on? You know what I mean.
It's very sad to see this all the time, growing up and just being an adult. Where's the respect? When I was younger, I use to wonder was this how I suppose to be? Lucky for me I had a great mother who was a wonderful example for me. Somehow, I still can't help but question sometimes.
I know I'm forever confused and that's ok because we all can't know it all. But I just don't understand that aspect. I know everyone has a price and if someone came to you and asked you to be in a magazine, you'd say yes! After all, everyone wants their 15 minutes of fame. Then they told you you'd have to be semi-nude. You'll think about it (if you're that type of person) and then they'll offer you money. Depending on how much and how bad you really need it, you'll probably go for it. Then they tell you what kind of poses they want you to do and then you're thinking wow...all this for $150? Uhh..ok. Then you sign a model release and BAM! Pervs all over are jacking off to your pics! That was easy, wasn't it?
I'm not knocking anyone who does this stuff and enjoy it. I'm really not. Sex sales. People love sex. I think I just figured out that I can't win in this battle. (silly me)
The point of this blog was why are black women looked at as just big butts and boobs? Who cares if her face is jacked up or if she has AIDS or 22 kids or use to be a man 2 years ago. It sickens me to see little girls grow up to be that way. Like this video I saw of these little kids at a birthday party dancing like "grown people". And when I say Grown People, I mean, she was grinding on that little boy with her skrawny butt in the air. She was doing things you would see in a club. I was disgusted. Who's parents let that girl go out like that? And where did she learn that from? SMH....
I wish this generation wasn't so fast and stupid. Book smarts is there, everything else is down hill. Can you imagine what it's going to be like in the next 50 years? OH MAN...
Some people think that I'm just jealous of other women who are in the spot light. Ok. But just answer this: is it right for anybody to galk, beat, rape, take advantage of or treat as though they aren't human at all??
Once again, I'm done ranting.

computers+you=not so great future

Hey hey hey!!
I know it's been a while. I'm sorry about that. I've a little under the weather and also tired from doing what everyday people do...work. lol. Nah, I'm good. Just recovering.
I had a few subjects I wanted to "blog" about. Good, bad or dumb, these were thoughts that went through my mind as I laid in bed and rest for the past couple of days.
You ever notice how everything is being done over the internet now a days? I'm talking about everything!!! It use to be a thing that I looked at as "a step up". Closer to the future. But the more and more I think about it, it's really getting ridiculous. Think about it. You can shop online, date online and even have sex online. Wow. Not to mention get robbed online and get your identity took. All I hear now is how unhappy people (Americans) are with how they life is and how out of shape they are and what not. But if you're on the computer 89% of the time, how do you expect to change any of that?! Sooner or later, everyone is going to be overweight with lots of health issues, stuck to their computers. Nobody seem to wanna go out and enjoy the outside anymore. What happen to going to parks and stuff? Meeting your friends somewhere to hangout? Exercising? Not only the internet is taking over things we use to do in the past which was actually pretty good for us, but it's making our future look very, very lazy and hopeless. Not trying to offend anyone. I just think that it's kinda terrible that people let machines control their lives. I don't knock anyone who does. Once again, there's nothing wrong with people who use a computer or who does most of their stuff on the computer. I'm just saying don't forget about the world around you. What happen if you didn't have the computer? You'll lose contact with you girl/boyfriends? You can't check up on the lastest dirtiest gossip? You can't get your porn fix for the day? You can't buy that Fonz collector's jacket you saw on ebay last week? It's more to life than this. Maybe I'm hating...(since people think that's all I do now a days.) Yes, internet is a great way of keeping in touch and knowing stuff. But it's also full of trash and virus and spam. I guess what I'm trying to say is I see people in the future being very overweight, little to no skills at all, and everyone will have to wear glasses. Ok. I'm done ranting about that.

Random Thought

I remember when I was in high school and people us to send each other notes or emails saying they like you or asking you do you like them. I know, this is random but I saw this thing on a ad on a site I was on today and it made me think: why does it have to be "yes" or "no"?? Why isn't there an "you aiight" button or a "I guess" or something?? I know that's not as great as YES or even NO. I mean with NO, at least you know that they aren't and you don't have to try no more. But what if they think you're cool but they don't like you like that or at all...lol Where's the in betweens!!!? Gosh people! Work with me!!! lol I'm being stupid.
Just a random thought......

Hard to swallow

After a few long days full of work, school and chores, I'm ready for the weekend! I finally get an actual weekend!! :) I haven't been excited about a friday since....high school! lol Yeesss, that means I'm off tomorrow! I don't even know what I'm going to do.
....Probably clean or something...lol or work on some work for school or my portfolio. Well, it's just good to know I have some time to do something! But when next week comes again, I'm back on the grind, making biscuits so ya'll don't go hungry!! Ha!
OK, I'm going to stop being stupid. Earlier this week I got really sick because I took too many pills. Not just any kind of pills. No! These were ones with huge doses of harmones. Yea yea, what was I thinking? It wasn't suppose to go that way. I missed Friday and then I missed Saturday. So what I thought is if I took them all Sunday, including Sunday's pill, I'll be caught up and ok. WRONG!!!!
Man, was I wrong. As soon as I took that 3rd pill, I felt sick to my stomach, my head hurt, felt queasy and dizzy and oh yea...blood! (too much info? ...I don't care right now) I thought that if I slept it off, I'll be ok. WRONG AGAIN, J!!!!!!!!
I went to work at 9am the next day. I was standing on my feet all day. I felt like falling over and dying. I was so dizzy. My stomach was killing me. My right leg went numb for some strange reason. Man, I need help. So, I ended up going to the Doctor and letting them run test and what not. But after I told them what happened, they knew what was wrong. I took too many damn pills!! They still proceded with the test and called me the next day with the results. (I'm good) When I got home, my boyfriend fed me and I laid down. After a few hours of laying down and drinking lots of fluids, I was ok. And my leg felt much better by the end of the night and next day. Through the rest of the week, I felt like throwing up everyday and my stomach didn't set right with me. But by today, I think I'm back to norman! :) Yaaaaaaaaaay!
And that was my stupid week. Not to mention, everyone who wondered what was wrong with me and I told them, EVERYONE said "DO NOT EVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!!! YOU COULD OF DIED!!!" Jee, thanks. I know that now. But I wasn't sure because I wasn't even a teenager when I started taking these damn things. What do you expect??? Yea yea...should of still not did it.
Til Next Time!

Grammy 2009

Ok, I know I'm a little late on this (two days to be exact...) but I wanted to put my two cents in about the grammys. First of all, BETTER THAN LAST YEAR!!! Yeah, last year sucked in my eyes. A lot better this time...guess they were trying to reach to the younger audience. Good job, I guess. One thing I was kinda mad about was they didn't show or say anything about the awards that some of these people won...they just kinda let it keep going with the show. And they had a lot of people perform twice. Which was ok...but you know...recycled performers or running out of money to pay? Hmmm....
Anyway, I liked most of the performances. Jennifer Hudson was a little off and shakey, but I don't blame her. She looked nice. She been through a lot.
I think Katy Perry was cool. The concept with all the women dancing with her dressed like men...clever. She doesn't sound good live though.
Hannah Montana has a wrecking voice to me and I really don't see what's the fuss. I ain't hating...well, I'm trying not to.
Taylor Swift, eh.
Swagger like us featuring M.I.A...That was one of the best performances! I really enjoyed it. I also like Lil' Wayne and Robin Thicke's performance...maybe because I like that song too , though. lol. Didn't really expect that.
Everyone did good...even Jonas Brothers and Stevie Wonder.
What was the deal with that Robert Plant guy?! He WON EVERYTHING!!!!!
Well, Anyway. That's all I have to say. I'm through.
Til Next time!

Rigged show?

I went to the Campus Movie Fest thing the other night. It was interesting. First of all, I like to say and make some comparisons from last year.
*Small room they shown movie in
*Smaller screen projected movie on
*Judges, still corny as heck
*Prizes...REALLY CORNY
*Winners...they deserved it. As for top 16...not so much.
*Actual films shown: 3 were good. 2 were bad. 1 was weird. 5 were just plain sad and can't remember the rest.
* Little short movies they put in between showings: had an "MTV" feel to it.
All around, good show. Now, this is why I think it was rigged!
#1: One of the people who won was also the host, also in the group who won, and also made our "new" mascot for our school. (this girl is really cocky. she was bragging to everyone about it.)
#2: The judges pic some of the worst films. Maybe it was just my opinion...or the people I asked afterwards what they thought. Hmmm... Not to mention most of the films that won were sad and depressing...mostly interviews with local homeless people. *sigh*
#3: They had only 3 categories. Best Comedy. Best Drama and Best Picture. Most of the top 16 were Drama or sad documentaries.
After all this, I know you have already guess...yes, that's right. My team didn't win....NOTHING. We were shown as a highlight, a few times. But no one actually saw the whole thing itself... well, we tried and we gave it a good shot. I'm still proud of everyone who helped and worked hard. It was a good experience. Maybe I'll work harder if I ever get another chance.
Til next time.