Man, I screwed up

Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa!
Man, has it been a long time or what?! It's not because I've falling out of love with blogging or telling you all what goes on in my life... Honestly, ya girl has been hit with...yeah you guessed it, RECESSION!!!AHHHHHH! I never thought I would see the day. I went from being a full time student with two jobs to a full time student with no job trying to figure out how to pay my light bill. I tell ya, it's seriously hard out there. Lately, I been thinking a lot about what people use to tell me before I was old enough and in college. How they use to tell me college is the best years of your life and it's nothing but no worries and parties. Well...not for me!! I think I went to one party, which sucked, some event for the residences at my dorm (it was my 19th birthday which I spent with 3 total strangers but I won a George Foreman grill) and a lot of walking around places I have no idea I was at. I went back to my hometown every weekend to see my boyfriend and bestfriends and everytime I came back, there was a hole in the wall or blood on the floor. Yea, dorm life is great. I didn't realize how much I should of just enjoyed the time I was there, roughness and all, until now. I'm glad I got to experience it but kinda wish I would of too advantage of more of the stuff around instead of locking myself in my room and only coming out if I leave or wash clothes. 2 years later after moving out of there, I went on my own and started paying bills. The economy was falling but not quite bad yet. Fast forward to now, everyone is getting laid off or fired, and nobody can get a damn job. What da hell is going on?!?! I really wish I kept some of my other jobs...but stupid me... I guess we all make mistakes...
Am I finally out of my "young and dumb" stage?
As of now, things could be better...a lot better....
For now, I'll say I'm not giving up hope just yet...
In the meantime, I have so much to do...so much to prove and so many places to go to look for work. So, I must go to bed because, like seriously, it's 3:07am. (Do you know where you're kids are?)
Til next time, Junkies!