Women are only objects

Back so soon?
Yes, I didn't want to put two different subjects in the same post. Maybe I should of? I don't know. Anyway, another thing I have been thinking about is....(drum roll) Women.
Yes, that's right. Women. Not just any women. Black women. Why? Because...
For how long have black women been looked at as "objects"? Just T&A or something to pour champagne on? You know what I mean.
It's very sad to see this all the time, growing up and just being an adult. Where's the respect? When I was younger, I use to wonder was this how I suppose to be? Lucky for me I had a great mother who was a wonderful example for me. Somehow, I still can't help but question sometimes.
I know I'm forever confused and that's ok because we all can't know it all. But I just don't understand that aspect. I know everyone has a price and if someone came to you and asked you to be in a magazine, you'd say yes! After all, everyone wants their 15 minutes of fame. Then they told you you'd have to be semi-nude. You'll think about it (if you're that type of person) and then they'll offer you money. Depending on how much and how bad you really need it, you'll probably go for it. Then they tell you what kind of poses they want you to do and then you're thinking wow...all this for $150? Uhh..ok. Then you sign a model release and BAM! Pervs all over are jacking off to your pics! That was easy, wasn't it?
I'm not knocking anyone who does this stuff and enjoy it. I'm really not. Sex sales. People love sex. I think I just figured out that I can't win in this battle. (silly me)
The point of this blog was why are black women looked at as just big butts and boobs? Who cares if her face is jacked up or if she has AIDS or 22 kids or use to be a man 2 years ago. It sickens me to see little girls grow up to be that way. Like this video I saw of these little kids at a birthday party dancing like "grown people". And when I say Grown People, I mean, she was grinding on that little boy with her skrawny butt in the air. She was doing things you would see in a club. I was disgusted. Who's parents let that girl go out like that? And where did she learn that from? SMH....
I wish this generation wasn't so fast and stupid. Book smarts is there, everything else is down hill. Can you imagine what it's going to be like in the next 50 years? OH MAN...
Some people think that I'm just jealous of other women who are in the spot light. Ok. But just answer this: is it right for anybody to galk, beat, rape, take advantage of or treat as though they aren't human at all??
Once again, I'm done ranting.

computers+you=not so great future

Hey hey hey!!
I know it's been a while. I'm sorry about that. I've a little under the weather and also tired from doing what everyday people do...work. lol. Nah, I'm good. Just recovering.
I had a few subjects I wanted to "blog" about. Good, bad or dumb, these were thoughts that went through my mind as I laid in bed and rest for the past couple of days.
You ever notice how everything is being done over the internet now a days? I'm talking about everything!!! It use to be a thing that I looked at as "a step up". Closer to the future. But the more and more I think about it, it's really getting ridiculous. Think about it. You can shop online, date online and even have sex online. Wow. Not to mention get robbed online and get your identity took. All I hear now is how unhappy people (Americans) are with how they life is and how out of shape they are and what not. But if you're on the computer 89% of the time, how do you expect to change any of that?! Sooner or later, everyone is going to be overweight with lots of health issues, stuck to their computers. Nobody seem to wanna go out and enjoy the outside anymore. What happen to going to parks and stuff? Meeting your friends somewhere to hangout? Exercising? Not only the internet is taking over things we use to do in the past which was actually pretty good for us, but it's making our future look very, very lazy and hopeless. Not trying to offend anyone. I just think that it's kinda terrible that people let machines control their lives. I don't knock anyone who does. Once again, there's nothing wrong with people who use a computer or who does most of their stuff on the computer. I'm just saying don't forget about the world around you. What happen if you didn't have the computer? You'll lose contact with you girl/boyfriends? You can't check up on the lastest dirtiest gossip? You can't get your porn fix for the day? You can't buy that Fonz collector's jacket you saw on ebay last week? It's more to life than this. Maybe I'm hating...(since people think that's all I do now a days.) Yes, internet is a great way of keeping in touch and knowing stuff. But it's also full of trash and virus and spam. I guess what I'm trying to say is I see people in the future being very overweight, little to no skills at all, and everyone will have to wear glasses. Ok. I'm done ranting about that.

Random Thought

I remember when I was in high school and people us to send each other notes or emails saying they like you or asking you do you like them. I know, this is random but I saw this thing on a ad on a site I was on today and it made me think: why does it have to be "yes" or "no"?? Why isn't there an "you aiight" button or a "I guess" or something?? I know that's not as great as YES or even NO. I mean with NO, at least you know that they aren't and you don't have to try no more. But what if they think you're cool but they don't like you like that or at all...lol Where's the in betweens!!!? Gosh people! Work with me!!! lol I'm being stupid.
Just a random thought......

Hard to swallow

After a few long days full of work, school and chores, I'm ready for the weekend! I finally get an actual weekend!! :) I haven't been excited about a friday since....high school! lol Yeesss, that means I'm off tomorrow! I don't even know what I'm going to do.
....Probably clean or something...lol or work on some work for school or my portfolio. Well, it's just good to know I have some time to do something! But when next week comes again, I'm back on the grind, making biscuits so ya'll don't go hungry!! Ha!
OK, I'm going to stop being stupid. Earlier this week I got really sick because I took too many pills. Not just any kind of pills. No! These were ones with huge doses of harmones. Yea yea, what was I thinking? It wasn't suppose to go that way. I missed Friday and then I missed Saturday. So what I thought is if I took them all Sunday, including Sunday's pill, I'll be caught up and ok. WRONG!!!!
Man, was I wrong. As soon as I took that 3rd pill, I felt sick to my stomach, my head hurt, felt queasy and dizzy and oh yea...blood! (too much info? ...I don't care right now) I thought that if I slept it off, I'll be ok. WRONG AGAIN, J!!!!!!!!
I went to work at 9am the next day. I was standing on my feet all day. I felt like falling over and dying. I was so dizzy. My stomach was killing me. My right leg went numb for some strange reason. Man, I need help. So, I ended up going to the Doctor and letting them run test and what not. But after I told them what happened, they knew what was wrong. I took too many damn pills!! They still proceded with the test and called me the next day with the results. (I'm good) When I got home, my boyfriend fed me and I laid down. After a few hours of laying down and drinking lots of fluids, I was ok. And my leg felt much better by the end of the night and next day. Through the rest of the week, I felt like throwing up everyday and my stomach didn't set right with me. But by today, I think I'm back to norman! :) Yaaaaaaaaaay!
And that was my stupid week. Not to mention, everyone who wondered what was wrong with me and I told them, EVERYONE said "DO NOT EVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!!! YOU COULD OF DIED!!!" Jee, thanks. I know that now. But I wasn't sure because I wasn't even a teenager when I started taking these damn things. What do you expect??? Yea yea...should of still not did it.
Til Next Time!

Grammy 2009

Ok, I know I'm a little late on this (two days to be exact...) but I wanted to put my two cents in about the grammys. First of all, BETTER THAN LAST YEAR!!! Yeah, last year sucked in my eyes. A lot better this time...guess they were trying to reach to the younger audience. Good job, I guess. One thing I was kinda mad about was they didn't show or say anything about the awards that some of these people won...they just kinda let it keep going with the show. And they had a lot of people perform twice. Which was ok...but you know...recycled performers or running out of money to pay? Hmmm....
Anyway, I liked most of the performances. Jennifer Hudson was a little off and shakey, but I don't blame her. She looked nice. She been through a lot.
I think Katy Perry was cool. The concept with all the women dancing with her dressed like men...clever. She doesn't sound good live though.
Hannah Montana has a wrecking voice to me and I really don't see what's the fuss. I ain't hating...well, I'm trying not to.
Taylor Swift, eh.
Swagger like us featuring M.I.A...That was one of the best performances! I really enjoyed it. I also like Lil' Wayne and Robin Thicke's performance...maybe because I like that song too , though. lol. Didn't really expect that.
Everyone did good...even Jonas Brothers and Stevie Wonder.
What was the deal with that Robert Plant guy?! He WON EVERYTHING!!!!!
Well, Anyway. That's all I have to say. I'm through.
Til Next time!

Rigged show?

I went to the Campus Movie Fest thing the other night. It was interesting. First of all, I like to say and make some comparisons from last year.
*Small room they shown movie in
*Smaller screen projected movie on
*Judges, still corny as heck
*Prizes...REALLY CORNY
*Winners...they deserved it. As for top 16...not so much.
*Actual films shown: 3 were good. 2 were bad. 1 was weird. 5 were just plain sad and can't remember the rest.
* Little short movies they put in between showings: had an "MTV" feel to it.
All around, good show. Now, this is why I think it was rigged!
#1: One of the people who won was also the host, also in the group who won, and also made our "new" mascot for our school. (this girl is really cocky. she was bragging to everyone about it.)
#2: The judges pic some of the worst films. Maybe it was just my opinion...or the people I asked afterwards what they thought. Hmmm... Not to mention most of the films that won were sad and depressing...mostly interviews with local homeless people. *sigh*
#3: They had only 3 categories. Best Comedy. Best Drama and Best Picture. Most of the top 16 were Drama or sad documentaries.
After all this, I know you have already guess...yes, that's right. My team didn't win....NOTHING. We were shown as a highlight, a few times. But no one actually saw the whole thing itself... well, we tried and we gave it a good shot. I'm still proud of everyone who helped and worked hard. It was a good experience. Maybe I'll work harder if I ever get another chance.
Til next time.

So anxious!

Well, it's finally here. It's only one hour til the big finale shows! You know what I'm talking about. That movie film fest thing I did with a bunch of friends! I mentioned it in a post earlier. So anyway, I'm so nervous. I don't even have to win...I just want it to be seen! I think we all did great! Everyone was great, down to the editing and film work. ...I would be nice to win though. LOL

 Well, anyway, I just wanted to post that. I'll be back to say the outcome..soon!

Why I gotta be hating?

Everyone has that conversation with friends or associates about what celebrities they like or whatever. The conversation that I get continuously cursed out about is Keyshia Cole. I just never liked her. She's probably cool as a person, but I just don't like her music. Sometimes it's catchy, but all her stuff sound like a high school or middle school girl wrote it. She uses the words "Love, think, you're, you, LOVE, You think You're in love, the one" and many others I can't think of right now. It's not that hard to get a thesaurus to change it up a little!! And not to mention, I don't like her show either. It's really ignorant. Not saying she is...the show. It's really putting black people in a bad light...like we all act like that. I don't know. I haven't really watched it either. Just the previews alone made me change my mind. Then one day I was getting on the bus. I looked over to the left of me on this ad that's on the bus stops..and guess who it was?! Yes, that's right, Keyshia Cole! Advertising for a relaxer (pink lester or something) A little too hood for me. WHY DID SHE HAVE TO GO THAT ROUTE!!!?! OMG!!! So anyway, that's why I don't like Keyshia Cole. Well...all that and I don't like the way she dresses. Ok ok, hate is out!
Til next time.

Snowball fight with Obama

I don't know why, but this is the funniest and cutest pic I've seen in a while.

Our Prez, hitting an cat with a snowball. LOL

Til next time

My first movie

Ok, there's this thing that happens every year at my school and a few other schools called the Campus Movie Fest! It's were students, staff, and faculty team together to make an awesome 5 minute film. The catch is..you only have one week to do EVERYTHING!! That's right, one week to film, direct, act, and edit a film. Believe me, it's more challenging than it sounds. :) Then they take 2 weeks to judge which 16 they like and will go to the finals. (I hope I get somewhere) This Saturday happen to be the final for us. We shall see. So anyway, I decided to enter in this year. I tell you, it's a LOT harder than it sounds. But we got it done! We only had a day and a half for my group to film because everyone's hecked schedules. But the outcome was great!! I was really happy with it actually. Looking back on it, there would of been some things I would of changed, added or done different. But this was my first movie using really good equipment and having people other than my family to be in! One day, when I figure out how to do it, I will put it on here so you can see my "masterpiece". lol Til then...Just know I had fun.