A New Year?

The new year is slowly approaching us with only 2 left in 2008. Great year for some, Terrible for the rest. I guess I'll be in that "terrible" category. I mean, I'm not going to complain because it can ALWAYS be sooooooo much worse. I guess I should consider myself lucky. This is going to be a short blog, however. I slice the f*** out of my hand at work 2 days ago. It's on my left hand but now I'm starting to realize how important your hands really are.
Well, I hope everyone has a great and safe New Year! And hopefully, 09 will be SO MUCH better!! :( I hope...

Happy Holidays

I know I haven't put anything up worth reading or whatever. Just been working those extra holiday hours. To everyone (even you haters) MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Enjoy the holiday with your loved ones and remember what it really is about.
Til next time...
J

Jayden bigger than daddy?!

A while back, I seen the movie A Pursue of Happiness and I was like, "wow, Will's son is pretty good". And I didn't expect to see him in another til he was a little older. Then I saw his sister got a little jealous and thought she could act better, so they put her in I Am Legend. She didn't have a co-starring role as he bro had but she was in it enough to tell if she could act or not. Her, not so much. I hate to say it but her little brother is a lot better than her. Maybe she'll get better with time, though. Maybe.
So I also notice that Mr. Jayden is in that new movie about the world standing still-an old classic...(I didn't say it was good!) And I'm like, "Jeez! This boy is not going to stop!" Well, I saw a pic of him on the red carpet or something in Japan for the premier and I'm like, "Whoa, this boy is going to be big! Maybe bigger than his father!" Well...maybe not yet. He has a while to go, a few more bubble-gum rap albums, a TV sitcom series and few blockbuster hits to go. BUT he's almost there! Go Jayden! Can this boy be stopped? Eh, he might. Just being realistic.
Maybe one day when I have kids, he'd be the Will Smith of their time.

18 kids?!!??! And they are all yours!? AHHHHH!

I know everyone has heard about the Duggar Family. If not, their this Mormon family in Arkansas that has now 18 children! That is TOO much for me. 2 is too much for me...LOL
It's great and all if you can afford it and you have time for all of them and really love kids, but in this recession, why do you want more mouths to feed?!?
I'm not trying to be mean or anything or even say they are bad people for this...
but you gotta know when enough is enough.

David Blaine = Jesus?

OK, I know I might be WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY wrong for this but I just have to make this point. You know how people say that Jesus will come back to earth and he will be at the point where you don't know it's him? Like, he could be a homeless man or something? And isn't the world all nuts right now anyway right at the moment where he may come back?? Hmm...ok, so I was watching David Blaine's show...I don't know the name of it. Shame on me. And I see some of the tricks he do. Some of them aren't really magic...it's just him doing stuff. But the ones that are "magic" are like really good and makes you wonder, HOW DID HE DO THAT?!?! Well, I was thinking since he can make an empty can of beer turn into a full unopened can of been right before your eyes, this man must not need money. He can eat out of the trash all day, literally. He can make a half eaten sandwitch to a hot fresh sandwitch. Also, noone knows what the heck this man's ethnicity is. (I know I don't.) This guy hasn't hurt himself yet...that says a lot. Now for my question, could David Blaine be Jesus??? (the more modern version) Come on...think about it. And does anyone REALLY know the whole story of the bible being that a bunch of chapters/pages are missing out of it anyway depending on what verison you get? (because Mr.King James didn't like the way a few things went.) Just think about it...
Til next time...

Concentrate, you idiot!!

UGHH!
Sometimes I mean to go through with something and it doesn't get done til the very last second. Y'all know what I mean. It's like for example, I'll say "I'm going to get in the bed in about 20 minutes". Next thing I know, I'm up for another 2 hours just reading stuff and shopping...killing time for what? I don' t know. Maybe I'm a little ADD...I hope not.
Lately, my hours at work has increased, so I'm at work ALL the time now. The only time I 'm off is the days I'm suppose to be at school. On the weekends, I defiantly hate because I work til late and have to come right back less than 9 hours the next day. My feet hurt and if it wasn't for the HIGH intake of caffeine from the coffee, I'd be really tired. But I can't really complain, it's a job. And I do get money. Not a lot, but I do get some. So, it's all good at the end of the day. And the people are pretty cool too...the ones I work with. The customers are a different story. LOL
School is...uhh...well I'm waiting for it to end. I still get depressed walking down the halls. I still wish I could of found a better place before I enrolled there and I kinda wish I didn't owe so much in loans. haha, that's life for ya, huh?
My cat is acting hella hyper. He's a teenager now and I can't tell him nothing. He thinks he's on top of the world and owns it too. I still love him, though.
Lately, I been drawing more...sketching I guess. I am finally getting some sort of motivation back. I get inspired by the oddest things sometimes.
Right now, Ghostbuster 2 is on...and I kinda start reminscing about the good old days before everything gotten so corrupted, and just started watching it. It's still pretty good movie.
Even though my heat is on in my house, I'm still cold as crap. I have on sweat pants...it's not working. Ughh.
Sometimes, I think of better...more interesting things to write about but I always forget by the time I'm by a computer. And I do have internet on my phone now, but how lame is that to write a long blog on your phone...and drive at the same time?? Not cool at all.
As I think about where my life is at this point, I'm not too disappointed...there's always room for improvement. I'm still young-ish and I haven't quite figured out what I am, suppose to be or wanna be yet. I guess that's ok. Am I happy? So far, so good. Like I said, there would be a few things I would try to fix or change. But I think I'm pretty happy. My parents are still here, I have my brothers. I have ... a few? good friends. I'm with someone I really love. I'm in school. I have a job. I'm talented. I have my health.
One thing I know that I want to do but can't start is a comic. I have a hard time sticking to one subject or plot or whatever. Then sometimes it's not that funny or nobody gets it but me. Or sometimes it's one of those jokes where after you explained for about half an hour and they get it but it's not funny anymore because you took so darn long. Then I thought about doing a graphic novel. I probably won't finish it. Then the story would change up by the end. You'd be reading it saying, "this story about a lonely girl and her dog is pretty good, I wonder how she's going to make it to Harvard." Then when you get to the end, you'll be like, "so she's a vampire who can fly only in the daylight but never do because she'll fry, her dog died of cancer and Harvard doesn't exsist in that world". What da hell?!?! Yea...I can't stick to one subject...must be that ADD again.
One day, I will perhaps. Maybe. lol You'll know if I do.
Well, I think I'm going to actually take myself to bed now. I said this over and over again. But I keep fighting sleep like a baby.
Til next time.

Long, Hard and Green

Yes, it's another addition of Food Porn.
Today's food porn is: Cucumbers. I'm not talking about a plan cucumber. I'm talking about chopping them up, putting some vinegar, salt and pepper on it! That's what I'm talking about. And you can't just do any cucumber. It has to be long, hard, kinda thick and NO soft spots. The cruncher, the better!! And if you think this is nasty, I say don't knock it til you try it! :) YUUUM! So get you a nice one and chow down! Makes a great non-fat snack. PEESH!!!

Why I don't listen to V-103 no more...

For about a while now, I been listening to V-103 and I like the station a lot. But I really hate it when I turn on the radio and I hear the same song I heard 5 minutes before I stepped out the house. Then I would go to school and get in the car after school and hear the song again. That's just...UGH... So, I stopped listening to V-103 for that very reason. Now it takes a very dumb song to make me stop listening to a station completely but this song just about done it. What song you ask? "Pop Champagne" By Jim Jones and Ron ...uhh what's his face... I hate that song to death! And I tried to give the video a chance then I saw this lady with a billion tattoos on her back and she was doing some dance trying to show off her tattoos. I was so ashamed. Where is the music going these days!? Come on!! We're in a recession!! Who has money to "pop champagne"??!? Ughh. Man, I'm done!!!

Why can't I get the truth?

1:27am and all I can hear is the sound of someone practicing the bass guitar and this terrible Disney show the Replacements in the background. My cat is sleep by the Christmas tree and my boyfriend is sound in the other room. Sometimes I have a hard time just going to sleep even when I'm tired. I didn't have too bad of a day. I went up to the school to handle some business, went to my job to get my check and ended up staying longer than planned, went to the store for a few things, to the ATM and back home. It rained all day. I wanted to stay in bed because honestly I didn't feel too good. But this was my only off day from school and work to go and do almost everything I needed to get done. I feel a little better about myself. I guess...
Then I cooked, and played Tombraider for a few hours. I think I'm actually going to finish one of those games for once. I NEVER bet a Tombraider game before. Kinda sad because I been playing for years and you think I'd bet one of them. But I always get stuck on some part and give up and NEVER go back. And that's it. I never bet it. I'm trying to get better with that.
I thought about my best friend today and how we use to be. While everyone I may talk to about the subject don't quite see how big of a deal it is to me, I kinda just think about it when I'm alone. A lot of times I feel I don't fit in anywhere. I talk to people and whatnot but I never feel fully comfortable. It's always something I have to hold back-like my sense of humor. It's not all bad but it can be tooken the wrong way. Ugh...
I don't feel like I really have any friends anymore. I mean, the ones who say they are friends, aren't really. And the ones who say they will always be there, never do. And the ones who say they care, forget within the same day you told them about your issue. So, where does that lead you? Feeling like s***. Or at least, I do. The friends I do have, my mom, boyfriend and brother are great. But it's only so much you can do. You're mother doesn't wanna hear about what you and your boyfriend did last Valentine's day. You're boyfriend doesn't wanna give you advice on how to "get that bitch back" when you felt like you're so called friend don't you wrong. You're brother doesn't wanna hear about your girly problems. I don't know. I guess I'm ok with it. Just sometimes you want that shopping buddy again. Or that from another girl's point of view. Or someone who won't judge you and who knows you so well that they can stick up for you when someone says "she's weird". Well, my boyfriend got my back in that area. But can you imagine going shopping or clubbin' with your mom??? Ugh...or your brother?! Am I lame?!
I guess I'm trying to say I miss my friend. But it seems she doesn't care about me. We aren't close like we use to be. It's always weird to say "my best friend" or when someone referr to when we use to be how we were. We use to be inseparable. And now, we're just grown apart. We went two complete different directions. I never thought I'd see the day. Sometimes I feel that if I didn't move away to go to school, we would of still been cool and something would of worked out. We would of still been close and hanging out when we're bored and telling eachother everything and just having a friend you can borrow things from. Stupid stuff like that. It would of been on a totally different level than what it was when were in middle school and high school. We could of chat everynight after work. We would go to the mall on a friday, to lunch on saturday and done laundry on sunday. Not that I want to spend that much time with a girl (trying not to sound gay) but just to have that friend I can call when I'm bored and wanna just hang out. But I don't have that no more. She's too tied up into men and everything else to care what's going on with me. She made a huge deal out of me not wanting to talk to her anymore after the incident when my bro died. Then when I decide to squash it and let it go, she acts like I'm not there. She talks to everyone but me. She's TOO BUSY to call me sometimes or to actually hang out with me when we make plans. Everytime we made plans, she cancelled on me for some bogus reason after another. Most of the time it was for a man. That's where we've gone!? I feel like I don't even know her anymore, and to a point, I don't.
And why do people feel they have to hide things from me? I mean, if you say one thing and do another, what's that?! Why would you say you'll do this or won't do this anymore and do it? Or swear on everything it's not like that but it is? Or act like things are ok but they aren't!? I don't get it.
I guess with all the ranting and whining, I'm just saying I miss my friend.
And I just wish we didn't lose touch.
Well, I'm going to try to get some sleep. LONG day tomorrow. I hate men's magazines. I need a better past time.
Til next time...

Cadillac Records

So a few days ago, I saw these neon pink passes sitting on top of the punch clock at work. They were passes to that new movie Cadillac Records. For a screening or something. (Never been to one of those before, so I thought "let's go!!") So, I got one for me and my boo. We left the house around 6:40 and arrived around 7:35. Don't ask what happened! It was pretty good for a free movie. LOL It was a lot better than what I thought it was going to be like. I mean, they had a lot of funny parts, though it's not a comedy. I like the casting. And the story was pretty good. Lots of love-angles. I'm not going to go into the movie just in case someone wants to see it. After all, it's not out in theaters yet. If I had to grade it on a scale 1 to 10, I'd give it a 7. And if we're talking school terms, I'd give it a B. I nice bold B. There were a few parts that were kinda left out for me and what not, but the music was great and the characters, once again, where awesome. And the commericals are a little off about that movie. First of all, they make it seem like another generic black people movie and it's not. One of the main characters was Adrein Brody!! He was good, by the way. And second, they put Beyonce ALL over the previews and movie poster as if she was the main character. Yes, her character she played is still alive today but man, what's with the overshininess! (made that up) Anyway, somewhere in the movie I missed a good 5 minutes because somebody decided they wanted to bring their 5 kids with them (2 of them being babies.) Well, this baby started crying and the mother refused to walk outside with all of that. Of course we were sitting right behind the noise. UGH!! And everyone looked around, including us. So out of nowhere some guy yells from the back, "Ay, take that baby outside!!" And a lot of people started laughing, including us. So the daddy got up but his girlfriend (?) told him to sit down. Funny thing, the baby stopped. LOL.
Anyway, I'm going to close this one, I got a long day tomorrow.
til next time...

Oh yea, that wig Beyonce had on was TERRIBLE....Stop it.

Days getting longer

Now that day light savings hit, I thought the days will get shorter. For me, not so much. I work longer hours, I work on a lot of school work and freelance work and I also have those home duties of cleaning, cooking, eating and taking care of everything. Yea yea yea, blah. And now another holiday is coming. Christmas. I use to love Christmas so much. I still love the lights, the weather, the songs, spending time with family and whatnot. (it snowed yesterday while I was at school)
I'm trying to figure out how to get all the important people out the way and what to get them? This shouldn't be too hard...right? Yea yea... it's going to be really cheap. lol ok, let's stop talking about this. So, I'm almost done with the whole transfer policy getting into another school. We shall see how that goes. I tried to get some kind of credit card and they sent me a letter in the mail telling me why they couldn't give it to me. Ugh.
I still get retarded comments on this thing but something is better than nothing, right? I guess.
Well, I gotta write 3 essay...so, I got my work cut out for me...yea...
til next time.