Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Why love should beat out hate.

You know when too many things happen all at once and you start to think to yourself, "Why is this happening to me? Is it something I'm doing wrong?" We all question ourselves time to time on whether it's us who's the blame for things not going the way we want it to or is it someone else. In this case, I guess I would be to blame.
I'm not gonna really go into any detail, (for the sake of one's privacy I shall respect) but it truly takes a big man to admit he's wrong. It really is commendable when someone can put aside all the B.S. and just talk to you. (No matter how mad or not willing to listen you may be) Nothing beats a fail than a try. And at the end of the day, all you can do is try. And if someone can't see that, then who needs them? After a long drive, a lot of thinking and a good cup of coffee, I came to the conclusion of how I may have made a terrible mistake. Just by not being able to simply forgive and move on. I guess you don't see things clearly sometimes when you are busy hanging on to old things and stuff that don't matter. And when it comes to love or friendship, you have to see what's more important.
One of my best(est) friends in the world taught me a lot about myself within the past few years and even more within the past few weeks. With all the love in this world, I do need to do some soul searching and figure out why can't I just be happy and let go of all the nonsense. I guess I'm too proud? Why did things have to be that way? I ask that question to myself and for some reason, I never got an truthful answer within myself and I guess now I'm really thinking about it. I've been hurt a lot, by a few people and certain evens in my life. And well, I know I can't let it bring me down. I also can't take things other people do out on my friend, because that's not fair.
Ugh, here I go ranting. I guess in a way, that's what blogs are for, right? I guess I feel bad because my best friend done so much for me and is a really great person and yet, I seem to let a few little mistakes on their half amend me from just letting go and moving on. I'm sorry. I really wish they knew how bad I feel. Maybe one day I will come to peace with it. Very soon, I hope.
Speaking of cutting your loses, there was this other person I use to be fairly cool with but now it seems we are at war. What did I do? Honestly, not a damn thing. And I'm not just saying that on my part. I sat there and thought about it, I talked to someone about it (who knew us both) and still couldn't think of what the hell I did. Now, normally, this person is just what I call a Professional Hater. And well, that's that. They hate on everything and everyone for no reason and really, they have no room to throw stones. But then they wouldn't be suck a hater then, now would they? Guess not. With all the crap that goes on in my life as of late, I really don't need the extra. I would be just fine without it...you know? You stop talking to the son of a b**** for a month and what they do? Write you an email starting stuff with you and then try to turn it around on you and say you're crazy when you responded back to them. Now, the grown up approach would be, not say anything at all. Because if you're threw with someone, that's what you are: Threw. No need with all the extra stuff. Just shut up. And if you are grown, married with children, you really should be more mature than what you are. Seriously. I find more and more "adults" who act like children now a days than ever. Makes you wonder what the kids of these people are going to turn out to be. Ugh. Does it hurt to just leave me alone like I requested? I mean, what da hell?! Then they try to put me on blast online. Wow...that's smart of you. Two can play that game and well...I'm just saying, You don't wanna go there. Trust me.
Sometimes crazy people will make you crazy. Stop giving them attention.
On other news, I saw this article about the governor of VA saying something about slavery and how he shouldn't have left it out all of these years. I was about to go off on him and call him all sorts of names til I actually read the article. haha. Well, he was just saying how he was wrong for not including the section on slavery to the state's confederate month and how slavery played an important part. Basically apologizing for leaving those who were offended or who lived through it (maybe) out. Nice, dude. Someone added in, "how white of him to do". I don't know what that's suppose to mean..but whatever. Good job, Mr.McDonnell!

Til next time.
I will come back for you.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

"Makes you wonder what the kids of these people are going to turn out to be. Ugh."

LEAVE MY CHILDREN OUT OF THIS PLEASE.