HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
So, it's finally here. 2009. That "better" year we all hope for, which is no different from the other past um-tenth years because by the end of every year, it's never a "great year" and everyone always hope that next year bring so much better things. I guess that's a good hope, dream perhaps. I mean, I'm guilty of saying that, too. Truthfully, I do hope that it does be a better year. I have to admit, 2008 was like hell. It had some good points...but man it had some really testing times. I could only pray that it doesn't keep going down hill. *sigh* I made it through tho. That's good! :)
I didn't start 2009 out the way I wanted to... I can still make up for it, I hope.
The first day of the year, I had to work. Then I had to stay later because one of my co-workers didn't feel good. I wasn't feeling so hot due to a visit from that old lady with the red box(if you know what I mean). I guess I didn't mind. The night didn't end so bad. I ate a chicken sandwich, watch a TV-with my boyfriend (yea, that guy again, for whoever has a dang problem with me spending time with him! Stop hating!) Then got around to watching that Benjamin Button movie...GREAT MOVIE by the way. It's really really touching. Story telling was awesome. Characters were lovable. It had some sad points and just things you knew was going to happen. It's life. Only down fall, that movie is LONG as heck!! If you got about 2 1/2 to 3 hours to spare, go on and do it.
I never got a chance to tell anyone my New Years resolution... then again, I don't really think anyone cares, too. That could be a big part of it. Hmmm....
Well, of course as everyone else's maybe, I wanna be a better person. Within everyday I wanna improve myself and because an all around better person. I wanna control my temper. I wanna learn to laugh at myself and don't take things so seriously. I wanna take things for what they are worth and look at the whole picture. I wanna get a better understanding of myself and the people I love.
I want to eat healthier...PERIOD. I eat a lot, but it's not always good. Sometimes I don't eat, and it's just plain sugar.I wanna get out of that.
I want to start exercising. I don't wanna be a trainer or anything. Just keeping fit and taking care of myself.
I want to learn how to budget a little better. Everyone needs to...who's not making that Paris Hilton money.
I want to do some volunteer work helping out old people or kids. You can learn a lot from both perspectives.
I want to enjoy life more. I want to take a trip or go out of town at least once this year.
I want to help my mom with her hopes and dreams. I'm only one person, but two heads are better than one.
I want to get back close with my bestfriends. I miss them so much.
I want to get my cat neutered...that's more of an to-do list thing than an resolution. Hehe...
I want to get rid of the clutter in my home that keeps me back from doing what I have to do.
I want to finish a book.
I want to slow down on my coffee drinking. LOL
I want to stop procrastinating. That has stop me from getting a lot done for years.
I want to become more business minded. Learn more about the business I am going into.
I want to get a better understanding for my religion. Everyone needs a center ground.
And last but not least, I want to how to cope with life's big disappointments.
It seems like a lot, but I think if I get down to it, it came be accomplished.
Well, as where I've been for the past few months now, I gotta go home now. (work) I basically live there now. :( Wish I got paid more.
Til next time. Make the most of this year, people.
J
You never wanted to end up that way. You say to yourself, "I'm better than that. I know how I want to play my life out and it's not going to go that way." But High School years fly by and the next thing you know, you're standing there head in hand and wondering, "Where do I go now?" Let's say you decide to go to college. You get there and you are enjoying the college life. Getting to know new people, experience things, and all the other great things that people say about college. Then there's a big issue you run across- MONEY. Next thing you know, you need a job to help with books...unless your family are well off with the money. Then you find yourself working a little part time job at a restuarant because that seems to be the only places that will hire you and work with your schedule. You're ok with it at first...after a few months, you start noticing things. Then the months go by, next years. And before you know it, you've been working there for about 10 years. You dropped out of college because the bills go to backed up. (hey, you gotta eat.) The work load became heavy. You only had just so much to go, and you promised yourself, when I get everything back paid up, I'll go back and finish. Yeah, that's the ticket. But somehow, one thing after another kept popping up, so it seemed. Everything in went wrong. You lost the place you were staying at because you couldn't pay the rent. You had to move in with a friend "temporary"-you know, just til you got on your feet. 3 weeks turned into 6 months and now you're days are numbered with your "friends". You don't want to move back with mom because you want to prove you can do it on your own and your pride is just too much in the way. You were THIS close to paying off that credit card, til someone side swiped you in your car. Now, it's totalled. They had no insurance. You can't get it fixed for whatever reason may come up. I don't know. Then you ended up spending your last pay check on trying to fix your car. Then you get fired for some bulls*** that you thought was a little unfair or had nothing to do with you. They just say, they had to let a few people go. Wouldn't it be you? So, you're going to be on the street soon. Nobody wants to help a grown person. You suppose to be astablished now. But you're not. You don't have a degree, you don't have any real friends, you have a companion (someone who cares about you and to help you fight some of these battles) and you could of had your parents somewhere in here, but you were too big and bold to say, "Hey, I need some help". So what are you going to do now? You look at yourself in a dirty Waffle House bathroom that reeks of urine and something forbidden to touch. You wipe the sweat off your forehead and put your paper hat on with the restuarant's logo across it and go back to work. You've just became that worn out lady with no future. It seemed so easy to not fall into that trap when you were young and blink...there you are. Not saying she's a bad person for being that way. You never know why somebody works at a cruddy job or how long or what's going on at home. All you know is, you don't want to end up like that. My thinking on this is that it really isn't too late to fix it. There are certain things you will have to give up or do to be successful. But suffering never was fun or a goal of anyones. I know it's easier said than done. But I'm already going through part of that. I'm just hoping I can find a silver lining in my gray clouds. I'm not really asking to be rich...just comfortable. This story was really just a worst case scenerio and not based on anyone I know. Just speaking. And Waffle House was the only restuarant I seen in the past few weeks with run down looking waitress'. Anyway, all I'm saying is don't put yourself down and give up on what you want out of life. There are good people who suffer everyday with just the everyday outcomes of life. They didn't choose for this to happen. It just kinda did. But you can fix it. It don't have to be that way. Don't belittle yourself because something is hard or things don't go your way. As long as your alive, you have a fighting chance. So, stop being lazy. And help yourself. If people see you trying, you never know, they might help or at least open a door for you.
This wasn't the pic I wanted to use, but it's the only one that would load. Darn...
